Tired
These last few months have been complicated for me, and have utterly taken a tole on my very being. I don’t care much for anything and I just want to get through this next week with as little drama and bull shit as I ever. I no longer care about what the hell is going on in others lives (of course there are exceptions but in reality there is only one). I don’t care to deal with break up problems or someone just having a bad day bull shit.
To note this for all of you: I probably won’t be up to do much for a while. In my state of mind I am just entirely sick of drama that is brought to me, left with me, and doesn’t seem to matter if it affects me or not. I swear, for those of you who are taking foregranted how much care I put into our friendship I am thoroughly fucking fed up. The world doesn’t revolve around you, and it doesn’t revolve around me either but I am sick of taking care of people who can take care of themselves.
I’m too stressed out to deal with people. Fuck all of you who don’t get that and if you get mad/upset over this, that’s fine and eventually I will be sorry, but right now I’m getting sick from me being upset and all of this just isn’t worth it.
When I figure it out I’ll let you know.
A. Smith
Obviously, both of these pictures are older, but I’m grateful for my family. :] I love you mommy and Kristy. :D
I remember when I was little, I could make a wish not only on one star, but the millions that lay in the sky. The stars were my hopes and dreams, they symbolized my happiness, my love, and everything that was ever needed in my life.
Once my mother was in the hospital, and I remember going to the hospital terrified and crying hoping my mom would be alright. She gave me a teddybear so I wouldn’t be afraid at night when she didn’t come and kiss me goodnight. It is green and it holds a star, and when you press a button in the hand it says “Star light, star bright, first star I see tonight, I wish I may I wish I might, I wish my wish come true tonight.”
I wish this could sooth me again, I wish it could get me through every single thing that life throws at me. I don’t even look up at the sky anymore, I don’t lose myself in the universe like I used to and sometimes I wished I didn’t live in the city so I could see the stars 100 times better.
- Amy
